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Midnight Letters: Life’s Uncertainties and Falling in Love
A teenager’s brushstrokes on navigating life — an abstract one
There used to be a playlist on my Spotify that I listened to on repeat — pov: you’re in love. It’s still there and I’m listening to it as I pen down my midnight thoughts.
I listened to the songs in this playlist after quite a while, and it all felt a little different. A lot different, to be honest. I can feel how serendipity lands on one’s heart and takes control.
The thing I can’t comprehend—nor do I want to—is that this all was one fine coincidence. It really was. It was sweet, no doubt, but at the same time, a coincidence.
Life’s so uncertain. I remember writing a dozen times already, but there are a few instances when you see it unfold in that genuine sense. And it’s mesmerising to experience that.
I’m all sorted out in my head, or so I think I am. But whenever I think I’ll retaliate at life with a ‘hey look, I already know that,’ for all of its share of pleasant and unpleasant surprises, it shocks me with a new intensity.
Wait, am I losing the challenges I am not even telling my opponent about? How good my opponent, or companion, needs to be to pull this off every single time!
Navigating through these challenges is, quite blandly, challenging. Or so does it appear sometimes. It’s like you’re walking up and down a hill. Sometimes you’re exhausted and sometimes the gentle breeze calms you down.
But at the same time, I am grateful that I got a chance to visit this beautiful hill station.
I know it’s all a little vague. But hey, that’s how midnight musings are, right? Vague but exciting. We all look back at those, remember, and while in that muse, laugh a little at how senseless those nights were. Happy or sad, I don't know, maybe a shade somewhere in between, but there’s a smile of satisfaction and a sigh of relief for whatever has happened.
Anticipation says hello before it all ends like a movie for that midnight.